ok, so, as most of you reading this know, I told her, I actually told HHEEEEEEERRRRRR!!!!!!!!! she took it very well. now, to the stuff you might not know. I'm still undecided as to whether I'm just really REALLY jealous(and who wouldn't be of anyone near cutie...) but! and I know its odd...I was for a while(I'm sorry dude) actually jealous of her brother...I've pretty much gotten over that...but, I was jealous that he was always able to hang out with her...

so, we went to a birthday party of a friend a few nights ago, and she let me hug her!!! she let one other guy hug her, and I thought for an instant about clobbering him...I decided not to though...it took a lot of self control I'll have you know. so that was fine.
the evening after I had got home I was texting with her and she told me that she was going to the movies with some friends, I asked who and she mentioned three names 2 of which didn't bother me...but then there was Lloyd, I must admit I have never met this Lloyd person, but my first reaction was to ask were he lives...she described him as dyed black hair wearing bondage pants...I wanted to hurt him and tell him to back off...I know!!!! I don't even have the right to be overprotective of her, but I have this natural tendency to assume that I'm not good enough for anybody, so now that I have found the person I like a lot, I have the natural tendency to try and remove all opponents to getting her to like me...FRIK!!!!! I know, I have no right, and I'm sorry cutie...if your reading this I apologize for being, so, well, I don't know what the word is but whatever it is, I apologize... I'm sorry...